tiada tajuk

hati rawan

wahai ayahanda bercukuplah menggagah tulang rapuhmu :'(

being shoved down my throat everytime about how much i have done wrong by making other people upset, it hurts me too. it hurts me that nobody is aware about how much im struggling too. to always be told that im the one that should say sorry hurts me too. its as if what im feeling is nothing compared to how upset people are because of me.

im struggling too. im tired. and at the end of the day, everybody has somebody to run to and to tell about how much ive done bad. while im just here, sitting alone. trying to find other words than sorry to apologize. eating up my own sadness and depression, having nobody to talk to.

ive said sorry, over and over again, to everybody. not once my sorry has ever seem to be valued. i guess i will always be the one pointed by any finger about everything that had gone wrong. everything will always be my mistakes. either because i have done it, or because i have not done it. it will always be my mistake.

i will always be the bad girl who is always making other people sad and upset. i will always be the one who should say sorry. i will always be in the wrong side of the world no matter what. because everybody else in the world matter. they are all important and valuable,

except me.

11:52pm

11/7/2016

manusia

kita ingat jahat orang buat pada kita
kita lupa jahat kita buat pada orang.

#klise

12:29am
10/7/2016

untitled

theres something beautiful about loving you in silence

i hear no rejection, at all.

12:02am
18/6/2016

ramadhan kareem

i died a million deaths, trying to live a million lives for you - Samantha King.

sayangnya tuhan pada aku, setiap kali aku kematian jiwa, didatangkan pada aku suasana damai bertuhan supaya jiwa aku lebih hidup untuk yang sepatutnya. masih terlalu awal untuk percaya bahagia bukan untuk aku. sesungguhnya sebaik-baik perjalanan adalah aturan tuhan yang maha tahu. matilah berputus harap, kemudian hiduplah semula, buka sayap. terbang dan lihatlah luasnya dunia tempat mencari bahagia.

ramadhan kareem.

semoga ramadhan kali ini membuka mata dan mendewasa aku. semoga sedihnya hati kerana dibenci diubati luasnya pintu rahmat dan nikmatnya kasih sayang tuhan tanpa sempadan. semoga hati kuat untuk bertaubat, semoga terbuka sekalian jalan kembali bertuhan. semoga sudah tengadah dengan segala dosa. semoga semakin baik segala galanya. amin ya allah.

8:22pm

5/6/2016

i want to write about a lot of things

but i never seem to have the time.

10/5/2016
10:20pm

untitled

Its amazing how much loves and attentions one can still give unconditionally when all they got in return is just hatred and ignorance conditionally.

Love makes you that capable, you know.

26/4/2016
9.15pm